I feel like I haven’t been able to express myself in the last few days.  None of my friends have been talking to me, kinda depressing. Feel alone.

Yesterday, I went to the gym and it felt good   I might take a walk today.  I have my iPhone now.

I got my shit together at my job.  I’ve been getting up at 9am everyday, and even on Saturdays and Sundays!  Today, was the first day I slept in, and I didn’t like it.  I mean it’s like 1:00pm and the day is almost over!  Just feels weird.

Been talking to someone a lot, on the phone, I really like him!  I don’t think anything “official” will happen, but it’s a comfort to talk to him, he helps me really forget Mr. Douche.  He’s very smart and kind.

Trying To Collect

There is one thing about my job that’s blah… Jason owes me a lot of money, and I’m trying to collect, and it’s not going so well.  I gave him my price list a month ago, and he just talked to me about it last week (or something like that), but it was definitely 3 weeks later that we discussed it.  And then the full time checks weren’t coming in, cause his payroll company was messing up.  Feels weird, but I’m trying to give him the benefit of the doubt cause I really like the job.  So *fingers crossed* on everything working out well.

And with that, I get to design my own bio page on his new site.  I mean, how cool is that?  So, maybe I want to stick it out for a bit.

Not My Business, Really

Ah yes, and last night I had a dream, again, about Mr. Douche and his new g/f.  Yup, he’s got one.  It really hurt me at first, but now I’m cool with it.  In a way, it’s like thank God he has one so soon so I can get over it sooner!  She’s okay looking.  At first, I thought it was his Mother, from the picture, but his Mom’s don’t look like that, she just looks old.  Not really attractive, IMO, however; we know that looks aren’t everything.  But, his life is not my business, anyway.

Small World

Been playing ps3 a lot   Made a bunch of friends.  Met this guy on there who goes to Northampton Community College, like wow!  All those people on there and he goes to my college?  Small world.  And I asked him plenty of questions, too, like what does the cafe look like, what kind of halls are there, he definitely goes there.  I was just shocked.  And now I’m a rating of “6″ on there haha.  Which the highest you can get is a “10″.  Kind of dorky, but whatever.  It gets me away from the computer until I ever find someone to hang out with around here.

I could ask Jeff to hangout with me?  Wish I had a friend again, to hangout with.  Sigh.  So lonely.  I mean come on, there’s a billion people in the world and I’m friendless.  I guess that’s the only thing (aside from my wishful payment from Jason) that’s missing.  I’ll do my best in trying to not think about it and focus.

Nothing To Do

It’s Memorial Day and I have the day off, but what to do?  My first instinct is to do work because really, no one’s here to say “Let’s go to a movie!”.  Day off and nothing to do.  Sigh.  I’m gonna go and maybe go for a walk, or eat, or read a book, or something.  See ya.